Monday- the world’s shortest horror story

I spent an incalculable amount of time updating the look of this blog this morning. WordPress makes everything more complicated than it has to be. Like I actually had to google how to add my Twitter feed to the home page! I suppose I’m just fed up with the amount of time I’m wasting online but then I don’t have anything else to do between part time work and finding real work again. More frustration. Mondays have always brought out the worst in me- ever since I could remember how to tell the days of the week. Seems like a … Continue reading Monday- the world’s shortest horror story

Paychecks and passions

Lost my job on Thursday last week. My birthday no less. They caught me on my 89th day. One day before the 90 day probationary period was up. There are no rules in At Will employment states like the one I live in. So there’s no point in fighting the dismissal. I’m wondering what to do. Sure I started looking and applying- ironically was doing so a few weeks back as I “felt” how wrong this position was the first week in. Just took it for the pay. Never mind the politics or the work. Caught between slogging on in what I … Continue reading Paychecks and passions

One week til departure

I should be paying bills, packing for a week long work trip to Amsterdam and generally organizing myself and my apartment. Instead, I’m catching up on WP and feeling derelict in my self absorption with everything negative in my life. And not even writing or Tweet-marketing my BDSM book. I’ve much to be thankful for but I seem to dwell on the downside of even the simplest decisions/feelings too much lately . A few examples: 1) Been to Europe lots of times and understand the fatigue of transatlantic flight. Me: “Last time was 1998 and you’re really out of shape now. … Continue reading One week til departure

Facebook follies

The Master introduced me to one of his ex wives years ago. This was a month or so after I met him in the flesh (we “met” on one of those hookup sites and talked on the phone for about a year prior to that).  Sounds strange to the average vanilla woman but ,as I detailed in a few of the trysts found in BeDtime Stories for the Master , he had a plan. And we discussed “the plan” on and off over the past 10 years. Suffice it to say that as I’ve never come out of the BDSM closet (nor … Continue reading Facebook follies

The sounds in the sea of dreams

I’ve been asked if I dream in color or black and white. I do neither – at least I don’t think I do. The few memorable dreams I’ve had recently were more vivid in sound than sight. They were more vivid in feel (meaning ,when I woke, I could feel on my person where my dream broke off).  I don’t dream much anymore. The few times I might are as vivid in smell, sound and touch than sight.  #vivid Continue reading The sounds in the sea of dreams

Long time, no post

To the handful of you that stop to read my blog posts, thank you and apologies for “no posting “.  It’s been a depressing 6 weeks and the stress of starting a new job and having to move to a new apartment hasn’t helped at all. Had to give up my (actually, my beloved deceased spouse) 75-lb “boy” to my brother back home. He’ll be happier there as this new job pays me a lot for only one reason- I’m never here. My poor old kitty seems to have developed separation anxiety too. So here we are- 2 old kitties. … Continue reading Long time, no post

He’s not just an “ex” 

So after nearly 2 years, I hooked up with Master last weekend. We happened to be in same place at the same time. Guess the moon and stars were in correct formation. I can’t describe my feelings while I was with him although I could get perverse in my description of the rendezvous. I only can express how I feel right now. In this moment, all alone again. Buzzfeed video to sum it up Continue reading He’s not just an “ex” 

Writing rumblings..

Writing and publishing BeDtime Stories for the Master was the easy part. I often chuckle when I see new authors on either Goodreads or Twitter starting their profiles with “published author”. So what?! I found the time to compile the 10 plus years of short stories into a readable format and found a fairly inexpensive publisher who managed to get my graphic BDSM themed  e-book out on all major e-retail sites. NO BODY TELLS YOU THE HARD PART IS SELLING! Selling copy, of course, includes marketing and a lot of self-promotion. Which I try to do on a weekly basis. … Continue reading Writing rumblings..